Marks and Meanings

I've always been fascinated by tattoos- the idea of going through needle scratches and momentary uncomfortable pain to get something you care for permanently marked on your body.

I never thought I'd be one to get tattoos since my parents have always been against the idea of their children being covered in them. But, here I am, weeks before turning twenty-two, with fifteen tattoos marked on my body, with the intent of getting many more. 

So, here are just a few of my tattoos, my heart behind getting them, and the process of designing them.

                                                               (Revelation 1:8)   YAHWEH was my first tattoo. In high school I had trouble giving everything I had to the Lord as I kept looking to the things of the world for pleasure. But, within my first semester of college, circumstances came about which left me without friends or a bed to sleep in. During that time, the Lord revealed to me it was the perfect moment to learn who He was: my Friend, my Love, my God, my All. He is YHWH and deserves my full attention. Without those three months of isolation from the world and solitude with Him, I would not be where I am today.

                                                              (Revelation 1:8)

YAHWEH was my first tattoo. In high school I had trouble giving everything I had to the Lord as I kept looking to the things of the world for pleasure. But, within my first semester of college, circumstances came about which left me without friends or a bed to sleep in. During that time, the Lord revealed to me it was the perfect moment to learn who He was: my Friend, my Love, my God, my All. He is YHWH and deserves my full attention. Without those three months of isolation from the world and solitude with Him, I would not be where I am today.

                                                            (1 Peter 1:8)  I've always been an emotional person, and unfortunately, my emotions have always controlled me. Some days it's a challenge to get out of bed as thoughts consume me. But, a few years ago the Lord told me that through good days and bad, through happy moments and sad, I have a joy that is unexplainable or inexpressible; a joy that is not of this world, but one that comes from knowing who my Father is.

                                                            (1 Peter 1:8)

I've always been an emotional person, and unfortunately, my emotions have always controlled me. Some days it's a challenge to get out of bed as thoughts consume me. But, a few years ago the Lord told me that through good days and bad, through happy moments and sad, I have a joy that is unexplainable or inexpressible; a joy that is not of this world, but one that comes from knowing who my Father is.

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One day at school a girl called me urgently and told me she needed to talk to me. When we met up, for hours she cried in my arms as she told me of everything that was going wrong in her life. After our conversation, I felt overwhelmed and tired. The first person I thought of going to was Daniel (as it was the beginning of our dating relationship). As he didn't answer his phone, the Lord asked me why I tried going to Daniel first before going to Him. I was wrecked. Jesus should always be the first one I go to, for He is my First and my Last. He's the One who turned my mourning into joy and my nights into day. No one has ever fulfilled me as He has and no one ever will. He's my First Love.

One day at school a girl called me urgently and told me she needed to talk to me. When we met up, for hours she cried in my arms as she told me of everything that was going wrong in her life. After our conversation, I felt overwhelmed and tired. The first person I thought of going to was Daniel (as it was the beginning of our dating relationship). As he didn't answer his phone, the Lord asked me why I tried going to Daniel first before going to Him. I was wrecked. Jesus should always be the first one I go to, for He is my First and my Last. He's the One who turned my mourning into joy and my nights into day. No one has ever fulfilled me as He has and no one ever will. He's my First Love.

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I've always seen "home" as a place I was physically at the most. So, for eighteen years Orange County, California was home. It even felt more like home once I met the best community. So, going back to school my junior year was the hardest. I didn't feel fulfilled since I wasn't around my friends who brought the comforting presence of my God wherever they went. But, the Lord showed me through those lonely days that my home is not in a person or building. He is my Home as He's made me apart of His beautiful story. And He is everywhere I go.

I've always seen "home" as a place I was physically at the most. So, for eighteen years Orange County, California was home. It even felt more like home once I met the best community. So, going back to school my junior year was the hardest. I didn't feel fulfilled since I wasn't around my friends who brought the comforting presence of my God wherever they went. But, the Lord showed me through those lonely days that my home is not in a person or building. He is my Home as He's made me apart of His beautiful story. And He is everywhere I go.

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Once I realized the significance of Jesus dying on the cross, it didn't leave my head. Jesus tore the veil so there would no longer be separation between us and the Father; He is the way, the truth and the life. When He breathed His last and said "It is Finished", He did what no other covenant/person could do: He redeemed the world of its past sins, failures, and brokenness. There is hope and that hope is in Jesus Christ who defeated sin and death once and for all. No longer does death have the victory! We are free in Jesus name.

Once I realized the significance of Jesus dying on the cross, it didn't leave my head. Jesus tore the veil so there would no longer be separation between us and the Father; He is the way, the truth and the life. When He breathed His last and said "It is Finished", He did what no other covenant/person could do: He redeemed the world of its past sins, failures, and brokenness. There is hope and that hope is in Jesus Christ who defeated sin and death once and for all. No longer does death have the victory! We are free in Jesus name.

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                                                                (1 Peter 2:9)  There's so much power in knowing that God chose us. He chose to create us, to love us, and to save us from the pits of death when we were the ones who threw ourselves down there. What a loving God we serve who chose us, while we were still sinners, to be His Beloved.

                                                                (1 Peter 2:9)

There's so much power in knowing that God chose us. He chose to create us, to love us, and to save us from the pits of death when we were the ones who threw ourselves down there. What a loving God we serve who chose us, while we were still sinners, to be His Beloved.

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                                                          ( Isaiah 9:6)  During the time of getting this tattoo, I would have anxiety attacks very frequently. There was nothing that could calm me down as it felt like each heaving, desperate breath was my last. But, Jesus showed me, and continues to show me, that He is the Prince of Peace. He calms the raging storm. He brings steadiness to my unsettled, anxious heart.                                                       

                                                          ( Isaiah 9:6)

During the time of getting this tattoo, I would have anxiety attacks very frequently. There was nothing that could calm me down as it felt like each heaving, desperate breath was my last. But, Jesus showed me, and continues to show me, that He is the Prince of Peace. He calms the raging storm. He brings steadiness to my unsettled, anxious heart.                                                       

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For a long time I've struggled with suicidal thoughts and night terrors. But ever since giving my life to the Lord they rarely would occur. But, over summer, during a long period, they would happen almost everyday. They happened so frequently that I stayed in bed for a week with no motivation or care to get up. The morning after one of the roughest nights of my life, the Lord led me to Revelation 2:10. I will fight the good fight until I am with my God face to face. I will be faithful to Him until death and forevermore.

For a long time I've struggled with suicidal thoughts and night terrors. But ever since giving my life to the Lord they rarely would occur. But, over summer, during a long period, they would happen almost everyday. They happened so frequently that I stayed in bed for a week with no motivation or care to get up. The morning after one of the roughest nights of my life, the Lord led me to Revelation 2:10. I will fight the good fight until I am with my God face to face. I will be faithful to Him until death and forevermore.

During our honeymoon, Daniel and I decided to get "honeymoon" tattoos. Since we got married in Phoenix, Arizona we wanted something with cacti, and eucalyptus since it was the main decor of our wedding. As for "YMMV", in the beginning of our friendship, I would always say "You make me vomit" to the friends I loved in replace of saying "I love you". None of my friends would really take heed of this saying, except Daniel. And soon after, it became the words we would say to each other every day. Pretty gooey, I know.

During our honeymoon, Daniel and I decided to get "honeymoon" tattoos. Since we got married in Phoenix, Arizona we wanted something with cacti, and eucalyptus since it was the main decor of our wedding. As for "YMMV", in the beginning of our friendship, I would always say "You make me vomit" to the friends I loved in replace of saying "I love you". None of my friends would really take heed of this saying, except Daniel. And soon after, it became the words we would say to each other every day. Pretty gooey, I know.

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